i dedicate my heart

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 15:16:32 GMT

jamison told me he loved me aug 25th. :)
he cant say his first name! he says Ah-ra.
he can say scott & ogers but it comes out ah-ra cott orges. lol
hes the light of every single day.
my absolute forever.
i wish i had a better life planned for him.

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 21:48:59 GMT

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 19:06:38 GMT

i just bought Jam some picture flashcards at walmart (cus the library was closed..on a Monday...)
i kept the ones he couldnt say, didnt know or only knew the sign to off to the side.
out of 53 pics, he got over half. he missed
boots (kinda hard since theyre shoes..)
horse (only knows the sign)
jelly (shrug)
key
king
leaf (he said tree)
mouse (he said remy -- for ratatouille)
nest (i think he said it, but i want him to work on it)
net
nuts (he said acorn)
pear (he said apple)
pig (he just made the noise)
rabbit (he said bunny..)
rake
shoe (he cant say it yet)
vase
wagon (he said it, but not good enough)
cat (he just made the noise)
bell
girl (he said doll)
hen (he just made the noise)
yarn
and fox (which he said, but we're working on x's)

:)

still content (and smart enough) with only one for life <3

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 00:29:13 GMT

june 9 2006

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 21:28:12 GMT

totally made me cry.

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 22:03:11 GMT

i never wrote about jamisons birthday?!
CMON LIFE, gimme more time!
well heres pics from it...
http://s497.photobucket.com/albums/rr335/jam_my_boy/
couple pages in..

and the rest are on la space
www.myspace.com/lol_at_this

:)

hes the love of my life.

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 20:18:47 GMT

hungry!? why wait!

i cant be mad!!!

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 04:41:47 GMT

http://www.imeem.com/people/XurRNIU/video/mE10kVA-/lulz_comedy_video/

love him

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 19:45:56 GMT

talky talkerson.

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Thu, 25 Dec 2008 23:58:44 GMT

videos from XMAS EVE and xmas ♥

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he was leading the music
& my sister's arguing with my mom like always.

my heart beats for him alone.

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 23:25:46 GMT

some pics of my handsome ♥

hes flapping his arms at the camera in EVERY PIC lol.

im standing next to him and im 5'6"
thats how tall he is. up to my waist. lol

yeah hes rad.

wanna see him last year @ xmas eve/day? lol. i dont remember him ever being a chunk...but look at him!!

tryna stand :)

hes my whole life ♥

sorry xposted everywhere & myspace.

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 20:03:40 GMT

he couldnt look ANY MORE LIKE HIM IF HE TRIED.

right? gah i saw this pic and was like hdsajfhksjahfjkahgkjag. HAI IAN.

sorry i just cant get enough of his face. i love love love his haircut.
and lacy took some of him the morning after too. he's too cute. i need to put him in some contest.

this is life ♥

S in for SUNNY!

lol he just carries his shapes around.

& theres too many piano & guitar hero pics to post so just go look at his public album,
page 3 & 4.

http://s497.photobucket.com/albums/rr335/jam_my_boy/

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 21:36:32 GMT

hes sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute. lol.
and hes got mad ADHD. i love it.
he WAS doing head|shoulders|knees|toes before i started filming. of course.
i need to be more sly with the camera.

i lub him to deaffffff.

halloween weekend

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 18:42:01 GMT

SUPER VAMP!!!

he looks like ian here, so much.

anyways you get the idea. we passed out candy for 40 mins, then went down to the church but...left after 15 mins or so. we were back in jams by 730pm. hah. we rule. his shoes came off 10 mins after i put em on, good thing they were only $6.
it was fun. hes adorable ♥

& now, a video. lol. a side i hardly get to show people. his laugh is contagious.

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 17:22:28 GMT

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 17:51:15 GMT

this kid cracks me up.
lol @ his sigh|glance at the screen (0:59-1:01)!!!

my heart & soul.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 19:08:22 GMT

just so its clear, my sister is 5'2". my child is MASSIVE.

my fave ♥

he finally let me put em on!!

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL i didnt know the flash was on. this one cracks me up.

hes my buggy ♥

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 18:36:56 GMT

yeah hes pretty cute :)

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 21:36:03 GMT

videos from yesterday;

use em how you want em kiddo.

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 01:36:40 GMT

coming out of the anethesia.

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 00:35:59 GMT

well im guessing yesterday was his "look! new toys instead of hands!"
today ..hes like JOKES OVER GET THESE #&@($&@! THINGS OFF.
sigh.
one day at a time.
hes chaffing real bad under his armpits so that irritates him.
today i had to change his bandage on his hip where hes got dissolvable stitches.
:| ugh. thats painful. its right where the tape on his diaper is.
like, 3-4" long! he said it wasnt a big incision! fhasdjkfhzdjkasfk
hes so irritable today. so sick of me not knowing what he wants.
when he wants to read. when he wants milk. juice. water. food.
the only times hes content are if i take him for a walk in the stroller...
(even though its still 100 out and that doesnt help his pit problem)
and when i put happyfeet on. good ol' penguins save the day again.
but he slept in 30-40 min intervals last night. then he'd start screaming and
couldnt get comfortable. this is the worst thing ever. cus hes not a teething baby..
as annoying as they are, you can slap some gel on their gums and then eventually sleep.
plus theyre like 10-20lbs. not 40 with 2 plaster casts. he just hangs off me.
my arms have never burned this much in my life.
i'll take another car accident before i do this again, please :|
sigh. 10 more days. hopefully.
me and my dad are taking shifts tonight again.
but that just wears us both out cus we're both getting like 4 hrs of broken sleep a piece
and then its the other ones turn.
and this wouldnt be any easier if i had a husband.
it just sucks.
im falling apart, trying to gather all my inner strength and prove myself wrong
but im sleep deprived. i cant eat...i cant even pee alone.
my dad is helping but the majority of the time, j just wants me.
he cant see at night so he doesnt fuss much
but as soon as its day...im his #1 pick :|
so! thats...wearing me out.
quickly.
my dad gave me a "break" so i came home where the net works
so i can have a hot shower, some quick hot pizza rolls and do some laundry.
hopefully lace can come over tomorrow and save the day. j loves her.
i STILL HAVENT HEARD A WORD FROM MY MOTHER. worst grandma of the year, you fuckin win lady.
my sister "has to work" all weekend..but keeps asking for pic msgs.
shes just waiting for him to be friendly before she comes around.
make me go thru the shit alone. thanks family!

sigh. keep up the texts though. i really do smile at all of em
and its nice to know people have a clue and care about us ♥

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 15:28:54 GMT

youre right; he does look like me. lol.

MORE JAMISON! cus it's his livejournal...

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 13:03:24 GMT

pics pics pics & a video from tuesday night.
lil buggy brought me my camera..i see him luggin it over, holding the strap.
lol so cute, all huffy|puffy.
then he just hands it to me and poses.
cutest boy ever.
& i finally got a good pic of his hands|fingers since im STILL getting questions about why he has to have surgery|whats wrong with em, etc.
the bones in his middle two fingers on his left hand grew together. so as you can see, theres no seperation between the two & the fingernail is for both fingers.
his right hand is just webbed. you cant tell cus it looks like hes just holding his fingers together but theyre actually stuck. the good news is the fingers are seperate so no bone will be cut, just skin.

he doesn't even care. hes the best big bby evarrrrrrrr.
i do need to cut his howard the duck hair though.. lolz. he yanks on it all day.

oh yeah, he had a mouf'full'a fishsticks too. lol it was dinnertime.

my bitch aunts call him "elmer fudd". gayz.

doing his esscited dance.

GIMME DAT!

those two are webbed :) he cant ever flip me off! well...not before december 08 anyways.

this might be my favorite;

& lil mr melt-your-heart ♥

two new videossssssssss

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 17:10:21 GMT

my lil monkey!

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 16:12:59 GMT

http://arizonamoms.com

more front page love for my lil babymodel ♥
s'pretty fun having the cutest kid in the state|of the month|on the planet.